Saturday, August 1, 2015

Rebuild Yourself With Christ

Everyone goes through tough times in they're lives and sometimes the result is being broken down.

When you truly reach your breaking point you will know and quickly realize that change is a must.

Rebuilding yourself and recovering from a break is sometimes the hard part so where do you start? First, evaluate and accept what has caused you to break, what the problem truly is. If you have anything that you need to say to someone to clear the air then let it fly, if they love you they won't mind your venting and will understand, if they can't do so then maybe it's time to let some people go. If you have built up emotions, anger or sadness of any type then let it all go! Lastly and most importantly PRAY.

Did you know that you really do have a true best friend. A friend that won't stab you in the back, that won't hurt you, that won't lie or talk bad about you. That friend is Jesus. Jesus can change everything for the better if you will take the time to pray and just talk to him and let him help you.

When you pray, pray with a open and devoted heart and mind. Jesus is the glue that will rebuild you and put you back together. If you don't use glue then it just won't stick right?

If your going through a tough time and need to pray but just don't know where to start then pray this with me now: Dear Lord, I am broken, I am lost and I need you to fix me, to make me who you want me to be, make me better and make me whole, put life back into my body and give me strength, help me to love myself and to most importantly love you. Forgive me Lord for all of my sins and help me to lead a better life to be more pleasing to you. Lord I know that only you can fix me and I am now giving myself and my life to you. In Jesus holy name I pray, amen.

After praying this prayer it's time to let the past go, move on and let go and let God. He has you in the palm of his hand so trust him above all else.

Jesus is the only way to a happy ending. Hang in there and know that even if you feel alone, Jesus and I love you.

Life Hurts

Life hurts. It bends you and breaks you and places you at points in your life where you begin to question your existence. Is their a purpose for me? Why am I here? Why do I feel so empty? We ask ourselves  many questions like this. Why? Because life hurts.

My life has been nothing but simple. Even at a young age it was hard to be me. Growing up and maturing is naturally one of the hardest things we go through as humans but sometimes reality sets in too early.

I remember my first heartbreak. No it wasn't a boy but instead it was the children that I went to school with. My mom took me to my kindergarten class the first day and I was so excited and was ready for her to leave quickly but little did I know my life was about to change forever. That day I learned that this world is a cruel place filled with other humans that will most likely always have a problem with you.

I learned quickly what the word "fat" meant and that unlike my family they didn't take time to know me nor accept me. I was a joke and my entire childhood ended up being that way. I was never credited for being the good person I was because no one took time to notice. They were too busy breaking my heart and spirit slowly.

Finally, after many years of suffering it was time to start high school so I chose to become home schooled. At the time this seemed like a great idea but it turned out to be a disaster. I quit school and am now at the age of 24 and enrolled in high school classes online and will be graduating soon to finally start a life.

After my teenage years passed I finally had my first boyfriend. Things were great at first but worsened in about half a year. Keep in mind that by this point I was so mentally drained that I was willing to do anything for happiness and love of another.

I was 21 and so was he. Our birthdays were a day apart and that intrigued me even more. Over the months things worsened. I lost my virginity by being raped. I was continuously raped for months and months after and beaten senseless. The story ends good though, after the situation ended God sent me my angel, my husband.

I was married August 18, 2013 to the love of my life. Things were finally looking up. For the most part things were better for me at this point but quickly started to get bad again.

After we were married people that he had introduced me to changed and ended up hating me for no reason and breaking my spirit even more.

My husband and I have been married two years now. It is now August 2015. Last month after suffering with anger, depression, anxiety, hate, and mental pain of trying to keep it all bundled up I had a nervous breakdown.

Of course I knew it was coming. I had actually been waiting on it to happen for a long time. You see people like to break you. They like to catch you at your lowest and then make you lower. So that's what happene, I kept getting pushed lower and lower until I couldn't even stand to look at myself. My stress level was through the roof and I finally broke. I started having seizures, lost my speach and was unable to take care of myself for nearly 2 weeks.

Life hurts. Even though I have told you this story and it sounds so bad, let me now tell you the good part.

During my nervous breakdown I saw my angels watching over me, I became closer to Jesus, my husband fell even more in love with me and I with him. So even though life hurts sometimes the pain is worth the ending.

It's been a month now, I'm still recovering. I have learned something through all this... sometimes you just gotta let the emotions go, let them come out no matter if others like it or not and NEVER be anyone's punching bag. God loves us all the same, no one is better than anyone.

God loves me and has told me that my table is full and I am now ready to make my journey home when my time comes. So even though I suffered I still had a happy ending.

Have faith, God can move mountains.

Friday, May 29, 2015

On The Other Side: Written By Andrea Saylor For Gearl Fields

I bet heaven is so sweet with you there. I bet you smile and laugh all the time and I bet you always have a good time.

I bet your hair is red and as bright as the sun in the sky and that your eyes glow with happiness as the days go by.

I bet your sight is clear and that you can see everything that beautifully surrounds you continuously.

I also bet that your waiting for us all on the other side , waiting to hold us and congratulate us on our home in the sky.

I miss you greatly and your memory remains in my mind and heart for always. But I'll see you soon on the other side when my time comes and I can join you in the sky.

Thursday, May 21, 2015

Potato Chips: Giving And Receiving

Sometimes in life we have things that we think we can't live without even though God doesn't want us to have them. But as we all know, going against God's will gets you no where. I'd like to share this testimony with you in hopes that it can give you some understanding and guidance.:
The other night my mother and I were at disagreement on some things in the bible. We just couldn't see eye to eye. However I had not researched those specific things in the bible therfore I had no knowledge of what I was saying.
We left my mom's after staying a few days and returned home. I just couldn't sleep because I just didn't understand what her and I were talking about. So I got my phone and opened my bible app and read the verses about what we were talking about and she was right. I called her and apologized and then got a huge bag out and long story short; I began packing my pants, nail polishes, hair dye, and colorful make up into the bag because in the bible it speaks that these things are sinful for a woman to wear. (If you believe differently that's fine and that's between you and God so please don't be angered by the post.)
Anyways the purpose of telling you all that is this... the night before I had been thinking how badly I wanted some potatoe chips but we didn't have enough money for them. After giving up my things for the Lord the next day we got a food box and inside was potatoe chips and my favorite chip dip.
This sounds silly but it's such a good example of what God can do for you. As simple as this was God still gave it to me because I gave up something for him.
Sometimes we have to push things aside for God in order for him to bless us abundantly.
Sometimes it's better to give than receive is such a true statement because the things we give to God he will reward us for 10 times better.
So if your struggling and feel like you just can't get through to God then think about things in your life, maybe there is something that God wants to replace with something better.
Always remember, Jesus loves you yesterday, today and forever and prayer always changes things!

Sunday, May 17, 2015

Romans 12:1-21 KJV

I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service. 

And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God. 

For I say, through the grace given unto me, to every man that is among you, not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think; but to think soberly, according as God hath dealt to every man the measure of faith. 

For as we have many members in one body, and all members have not the same office: 

So we, being many, are one body in Christ, and every one members one of another. 

Having then gifts differing according to the grace that is given to us, whether prophecy, let us prophesy according to the proportion of faith; 

Or ministry, let us wait on our ministering: or he that teacheth, on teaching; 

Or he that exhorteth, on exhortation: he that giveth, let him do it with simplicity; he that ruleth, with diligence; he that sheweth mercy, with cheerfulness. 

Let love be without dissimulation. Abhor that which is evil; cleave to that which is good. 

Be kindly affectioned one to another with brotherly love; in honour preferring one another; 

Not slothful in business; fervent in spirit; serving the Lord; 

Rejoicing in hope; patient in tribulation; continuing instant in prayer; 

Distributing to the necessity of saints; given to hospitality. 

Bless them which persecute you: bless, and curse not. 

Rejoice with them that do rejoice, and weep with them that weep. 

Be of the same mind one toward another. Mind not high things, but condescend to men of low estate. Be not wise in your own conceits. 

Recompense to no man evil for evil. Provide things honest in the sight of all men. 

If it be possible, as much as lieth in you, live peaceably with all men. 

Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written, Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the Lord. 

Therefore if thine enemy hunger, feed him; if he thirst, give him drink: for in so doing thou shalt heap coals of fire on his head. 

Be not overcome of evil, but overcome evil with good.

John 3:30-31 KJV

He must increase, but I must decrease.  He that cometh from above is above all: he that is of the earth is earthly, and speaketh of the earth: he that cometh from heaven is above all.

John 3:16-17 KJV

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.   
For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.